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Sunday, 28th Sept 08

The time has come
for me to grow alittle older
and it seems i've grown colder
at the same time...
it was my birthday...
too many things have happened
turning happy birthday to saddy birthday
18th birthday...wow...
something big...
but...only a handful of my friends actually remembered...
and people expects me to cheer up...
ironic...
drinking session is the only event today
get high, tipsy, wasted and stayed up all night...
thinking...daydreaming...staring into blank space...
watch those stars up there in the valet sky...
wondering if things would change for the better...
*drowning my sorrows*
- Cheers ! -
thx to those who remembered...
appreciate it...

all i wanna do was to love you... 5:16 PM

22nd - 27th Sept 08

This week seems to be one of the worst week i've ever had
everything seems to have gone wrong somewhere, somehow
history has repeated itself
and it's always close to my birthday...
is this a curse...i wish i had an answer
my mind's filled with questions without answers...
what a sad week...
wishing someone out there really understands me...
someone who understands my intentions...
this whole month was all about planning
planning a surprise and memorable thing...
for someone...but unfortunately
i've lost to time...
i guess...i could only blame myself
now...i'll have to grit my teeth and watch it falls apart...
all the effort and time spent to make something perfect...
*poof* just went down the drain
these feelings and pain...
it's so frustrating...
hate it so much...
there's nothing left for me to do
felt like i was losing my mind...
and im sure i did...
apologies is all that i could deliever...
sorry...

all i wanna do was to love you... 5:00 PM

Monday, 21st Sept 08

Damn...my buddy got his posting already...
he got posted to jurong there siol...
so far...
lol...tio rifleman...ahahaha
good luck...
this morning he have to report at the camp at 6am sia...
wonder what time does he need to wake up and get ready...
4am ? lols...suay...
hopefully 1 and a half more years would pass by fast

all i wanna do was to love you... 12:46 PM

Sunday, 20th Sept 08

Jeremiah's Birthday...
woots...long time never see him le...
hmm...wondering how's he doing...
secondary school buddy...
happy birthday dude...
all the best...

all i wanna do was to love you... 12:42 PM

Monday, 15th Sept 08

Today nothing to do
so went to play lan with my buddy
sian...play long liao also boring
after that stop by his house for dinner
bbq again...so many food left from the previous bbq
jialat...only 6 of us and we have to finish it...
bbq until 12.30am lols...

all i wanna do was to love you... 12:37 PM

Sunday, 14th Sept 08

Awww...my buddy's com crashed...
so...he got to fix it...lols...
today, brought his bloody heavy piece of metal(CPU) to sim lim square
crazy sia...so bloody heavy...dunno what he put inside...
time's running out, sim lim square the shops closes early
so we took a cab down
in the cab, we were talking about families...lols
what a lame topic
reach there...search high and low for the shop he's looking for...
kenasai, carry the heavy cpu around like a clown...
went to the infomation counter nabei, we ask the lady where's the shop bliss she hear until police...
wtf...ask the security guard so much better...
walking around in circles...the stupid shop number not in sequence de...
reach there...i bought my buddy his birthday present, Mircosoft Reclusa, gaming keyboard
woo...quite expensive sia...but nevermind la...since he's my best buddy
then walk around comparing prices and asking which brand better
after buying the stupid keyboard, we went to buy razor mouse for my other friend...
he heartbroken sia...how sad...but what to do, always never learn his lessons
dont wanna take our advice...twit...
then...another present again...for my secondary school bro, jeremiah...
bought a computer game for him...lols...hope he likes it...
wah...today spend so much sia....
i feel so broke T.T sian...bo money...sian...
today is one hell of a shopping spree...shop until my pocket got big hole...
zzz...but anyways...hope they like it :D happy birthday pals...!

all i wanna do was to love you... 2:24 AM

Saturday, 13th Sept 08

Woohoo
best gay buddy birthday party is here
although he's birthday was one 11th sept
but still...woo...time for the alcohol to get out of it's cages
bbq at his place, so many unfamiliar faces
so, i stick to my own group
was damn bored at first
didnt ate much
talk alot of craps
disturb the birthday boy by shouting botak whenever he walks pass
haha, make him dulan =x
disturb one another like some crazy lame ass
just the three of us, we made a whole lot of noise lols
after that, when shop and save, bought 7up for vodka
was finding high and low for some weird new band lemon drink
but couldnt find, heard that that was the best mixer lols
when everyone left,
my gay buddy, one heartbroken sissy...oops i mean guy and another gaming freak
first we talked about our lives and problems
got to cheer up that heartbroken sissy lols
he got dumped...so sad...we had to crack our brains and find a way for him to patch back
all the best for him
after that, we went crazy playing drinking games, loser drink LOL
so damn funny
all the stupid stupid funny actions made us laugh non-stop
played another game called big potato and small potato
ahahaha so damn funny...play until we all start laughing like crazy
laugh till we have stomach cramps
play until we start dancing LOL ahaha
so damn funny, all the actions and emotions was priceless
look at my three friends all face so red really like tomato
play from english version change to chinese change to hokkien lol...
so damn confusing

make the person stun and lag lol with the shock face written "wtf is that" was so funny
we laughed so loudly until the security guard came to kajiao us
call us to keep our voices down
cant he see we're freaking drunk lol
here's the best part, we stripped and jump into the pool after drinking LOL
water was freezing cold haha
chased one another in the pool LOL ! do all sorts of stupid things
then walked home in the middle of the night
so darn quiet siol...creepy...
got to walk pass a graveyard somemore...haha!
go home...drunk liao, still can use the computer for quiet awhile haha siao liao
what a day...it was awesome =x

all i wanna do was to love you... 12:58 AM

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Travis, Eighteen
Something has been taken from deep inside of me.
A secret kept locked away no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away.
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played.
Sometimes i remember the darkness of my past.
Brining back these memories i wish i didn't have.
Sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back.
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past.
All of the helplessness inside.
Pretending i don't feel misplaced.
Replacing this pain with something numb.
Facing all this pain here all alone.
If i could change, i would.
Take back the pain, i would.
Retrace every wrong move that i made, i would.
If i could stand up and take the blame, i would.
If i could take all the shame to the grave, i would.

self-actualization

The feeling of helplessness from my pasts.
And the things i've gone through once.
Are the things i'll never want my close ones to go through.
That's why i'm always trying to help my friends.
Mostly through their times of needs.
My actions do not have to be remembered by them.
Cause i'll be happy to see them able to move on.
It's natural for one to leave for the better.
Im just a friend's support.
That's all i want to be.
Noble or whatever nice words one can think of.
I dont wish to be classified as one.
Cause i dont wish to be remembered.
Picking them up from their darkest moments.
It's okay even if my intentions are stained.
Or if it's unappreciated.
What matters most is for each and every one of them to be happy.
When they no longer need me.
That's when i'll be gone.
After they leave.

Important People

★Sofu - Darling | My Darling.
★Cheryl Wong - Gan Ke Ai | The One I Care For Most
★Gzerrel Lee - My Best Friend(Gay Buddy) | Understands Me The Most. Knows Me From Inside Out.
★Stella Lew - Close Friend | Cares For Me Alot.
★Kitty - Gan Precious | Cares For Me Alot.
★Chanelle - Bah Kua | My Entertaining Bak Kwa Friend.
★Xu Qing - Friend | Cares For Me Alot. Always Calls Me BoyBoy...
★Jason Lim - Close Friend | Shares Experience With Me.
★Joyce Lim - Quite Close Friend | Shares The Same Past And Mindset.
★Sherylene Suen - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Kifer Lau - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Rusky Wong - My Good Doggie Boi | Rest In Peace.

friends

Ah Boon
Donavan
Nakulesh
Shaun Chan
Jeremiah Neo
Cherine Fong
Amanda Tan
Isaac Sim
Jeremy Liu
Eugene Foo
Louis Tan
Daniel Tan
Qing Gui
Por Weiting
Kia Heng
Brian
Chris Ng

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ChoyYih(Nu Er)
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Amanda(XinGan)
Isaac(Smurf)
Jacq
Alexis
Veron
Kimmi
Sam
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Isabel
Amanda
Cheryl
★Sofu

lol lame

This Fucking Thing Is All Personality!
I Think Rock And Roll Is Really Funny When It's Serious.
Dont Hate Me Cause I Pretend To Be Happy.
Dont Hate Me Cause Im Miserable.
Dont Hate Me If I Make You Smile,
Or If I Go The Extra Mile To Make You Feel Better On A Really Shitty Day.
And If You're Hearing What Im Saying,
Then I Want You To Say, "Im Gay!" Say, "Im Gay!"
Put Your Left Hand Over Your Heart And Repeat After Me.
It's Perfectly Fine To Be A Happy Individual.
Isnt That Nice? Very Nice.
That's Right Ladies And Gentleman!
Pick Up The Phone. Cause Travis Is On The Line.
And You Dont Have To Be Sad Anymore.
We Can All Join Hands And Do Ring Around.
In Fact, Can We Get Some LA LAs Up In Here?!
Yo!, Where My LA LAs At??! La La-La La, La-La La-La La La La La

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wishlist

Acoustic Guitar
Variax Microphone
New Dog
Lip Piercing
Car License
A Car
My Own Band
New Watch
New Shoes
New Shorts
New Hoodies
New Sunglasses
New Specs
New Hairstyle
New Bag
Highlight Hair
Contact Lens
Sony Bravia Tv
5.1 Stereo/Home-Theatre System
Renovated Room
Self-Composed Songs
Holiday With My Friends
Learn Snowboarding Tricks
Learn Surfing
Cheryl...(I'll Never Be Able To Have You.)

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