Once again...
yet another boring day for me...
boredom seems to haunt me every day...

seems like my computer's getting sick as well...
problems are arising on my computer...
thinking of ways to salvage it haha...
unfortunately...i could not find any remedies for it...

spent the day with my dad...
cycling at east coast park from one end to the other...
but as the sea breeze blew pass me, my mind seems to be drifting away
pratically, i did nothing for the whole day...
just letting time pass me by...
school's starting tomorrow, sheesh...it's gonna get much more boring soon...
and my buddy is going back to camp today...

loneliness caught up with me again...

Another boring day being cooped at home.
no appointments at all...
well i guess it's because of the limited friends i have...
just hoping that time passes me by
every graduation leaves me losing some friends
well, it's something i knew i cant avoid...
nothing uncommon as it has happened throughout my life
after every single graduation...

sigh...things aint what i expected it to be...
life is so unpredictable i guess...
my buddy...my one and only buddy...that's all i have
hang out with him as he seems to be deprived from computer games haha.
so...me being bored...just accompanied him...
still feeling bored
but at least i've something to do...
pratically the same routine
knocked out again after reaching home...

Today's the day
the day my buddy checks out from camp.
it's been a week since he went for NS.
haha, imaginating how would he look being botak !
unimaginable...
hopefully he lost some weight since he always wanted to do that

met him during the night at simpang bedok.
played lan with him throughout the night as he missed playing...
so, i accompanied him...
not bad...at least i improved haha, not as blur as last time...
win a couple of rounds and lost some
well...after awhile, it makes me really bored
but since i had nothing to do, so i just played along with him
kindda tired and i missed the euro quarter finals...damnit...

walked home at around 5am
woah...it's like so darn quiet...
walked pass a cemetery...
so freakishly creepy but no choice...
knock out on my bed after bathing...
what a boring day....

Was really exhasted today.
feeling so damn shag because i've been sleeping very late at night ever since my holidays started.

the days before 19th of june 08,
really did nothing productive or intensive.
just laze around at home doing nothing
ever since my "bro", gzerrel went to army for NS.
it was crap man...
lonely throughout the days...

alright enough about that, back to 19th june.
hmm...it's been a week since her birthday had past which was on 11th june.
i woke up because she sent me a message.
was surprised that she messaged me.
it's been quite a while since she talked to me.
kindda having a mixture of different kinds of feelings at that point of time.
was wondering how she would know i sent her that gift...
anyways, she said thanks for the gift and that she liked it.
well...was really glad to hear that...
but just when i thought what i should reply
words filled my head but...i know...i should not say much...
so i just send my regards to her thats all.
after that...everything was back to what i've been doing over the days...
pratically nothing...boredom caught up with me once again...

Today's the BIG day.
class bbq.
gosh...
me being the one who organised this
woah...i realised it's not an easy task.
lots of pressure and stress though it may seem easy.

thanks to a couple of my friends who helped out.
really appreciate their endless effort in making this work.
it might not be flawless for others but it was to me.

everything went well but there wasnt much things to do...
so kindda got to improve it
no idea why my friend fell sick during the event.
the food was appetizing. looks really great.
taste as good as it looks that's all i could say.

i cycled all the way there from home...
it was so tiring cause i was carring a huge and heavy bag.
but it was worth it.
spent the whole day at east coast park
and soon we crush macdonald's
to catch euro 08 germany vs croatia
just to be disappointed at their 2-1 loss to them.
everyone went home.
two crazy dude were drunk and getting high...
and i cycle my way home at 3am.
gosh...
hopefully the next time i organise such thing would be better. =D

Today, a very special day indeed.
the birthday of a special someone of mine.
however, lots of things had changed over time.
like they say, "so close but yet so far", for this phrase, i cant agree more.

just rotting at home with nothing to do.
send a small birthday gift to her.
well...hopefully it reaches her safely
hopefully she would like it.
not a big or an expensive thing
just a spongebob mug which she adores.
and i bought that from overseas.

anyways...wrapped the gift with a birthday card
and woosh, i've send it through mail.
a birthday gift without the sender's infomation at all.
knowing that she doesnt like me anymore, so what's the point of letting her know who sent this .
as long as she likes it, that's enough.

hmm a boring day indeed.
just laze around, staring at stuffs...thinking of the past...yep...thats all...
darn...what a lonely day...

Travis, Eighteen
Something has been taken from deep inside of me.
A secret kept locked away no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away.
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played.
Sometimes i remember the darkness of my past.
Brining back these memories i wish i didn't have.
Sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back.
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past.
All of the helplessness inside.
Pretending i don't feel misplaced.
Replacing this pain with something numb.
Facing all this pain here all alone.
If i could change, i would.
Take back the pain, i would.
Retrace every wrong move that i made, i would.
If i could stand up and take the blame, i would.
If i could take all the shame to the grave, i would.


The feeling of helplessness from my pasts.
And the things i've gone through once.
Are the things i'll never want my close ones to go through.
That's why i'm always trying to help my friends.
Mostly through their times of needs.
My actions do not have to be remembered by them.
Cause i'll be happy to see them able to move on.
It's natural for one to leave for the better.
Im just a friend's support.
That's all i want to be.
Noble or whatever nice words one can think of.
I dont wish to be classified as one.
Cause i dont wish to be remembered.
Picking them up from their darkest moments.
It's okay even if my intentions are stained.
Or if it's unappreciated.
What matters most is for each and every one of them to be happy.
When they no longer need me.
That's when i'll be gone.
After they leave.


★Sofu - Darling | My Darling.
★Cheryl Wong - Gan Ke Ai | The One I Care For Most
★Gzerrel Lee - My Best Friend(Gay Buddy) | Understands Me The Most. Knows Me From Inside Out.
★Stella Lew - Close Friend | Cares For Me Alot.
★Kitty - Gan Precious | Cares For Me Alot.
★Chanelle - Bah Kua | My Entertaining Bak Kwa Friend.
★Xu Qing - Friend | Cares For Me Alot. Always Calls Me BoyBoy...
★Jason Lim - Close Friend | Shares Experience With Me.
★Joyce Lim - Quite Close Friend | Shares The Same Past And Mindset.
★Sherylene Suen - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Kifer Lau - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Rusky Wong - My Good Doggie Boi | Rest In Peace.


Ah Boon
Donavan
Nakulesh
Shaun Chan
Jeremiah Neo
Cherine Fong
Amanda Tan
Isaac Sim
Jeremy Liu
Eugene Foo
Louis Tan
Daniel Tan
Qing Gui
Por Weiting
Kia Heng
Brian
Chris Ng




XiaoDai(Ke Ai)
Kitty(Precious)
ChoyYih(Nu Er)
Liping(Nu Er)
Chanelle(Bak Kwa)
Amanda(XinGan)
Isaac(Smurf)
Jacq
Alexis
Veron
Kimmi
Sam
CookieMonster


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Isabel
Amanda
Cheryl
★Sofu


This Fucking Thing Is All Personality!
I Think Rock And Roll Is Really Funny When It's Serious.
Dont Hate Me Cause I Pretend To Be Happy.
Dont Hate Me Cause Im Miserable.
Dont Hate Me If I Make You Smile,
Or If I Go The Extra Mile To Make You Feel Better On A Really Shitty Day.
And If You're Hearing What Im Saying,
Then I Want You To Say, "Im Gay!" Say, "Im Gay!"
Put Your Left Hand Over Your Heart And Repeat After Me.
It's Perfectly Fine To Be A Happy Individual.
Isnt That Nice? Very Nice.
That's Right Ladies And Gentleman!
Pick Up The Phone. Cause Travis Is On The Line.
And You Dont Have To Be Sad Anymore.
We Can All Join Hands And Do Ring Around.
In Fact, Can We Get Some LA LAs Up In Here?!
Yo!, Where My LA LAs At??! La La-La La, La-La La-La La La La La





Acoustic Guitar
Variax Microphone
New Dog
Lip Piercing
Car License
A Car
My Own Band
New Watch
New Shoes
New Shorts
New Hoodies
New Sunglasses
New Specs
New Hairstyle
New Bag
Highlight Hair
Contact Lens
Sony Bravia Tv
5.1 Stereo/Home-Theatre System
Renovated Room
Self-Composed Songs
Holiday With My Friends
Learn Snowboarding Tricks
Learn Surfing
Cheryl...(I'll Never Be Able To Have You.)


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