After school i went to take my basic theory test...
finished the test in 5 mins...
and i passed...yippie...
went home to change then met daniel and my best friend goel at tanah merah
daniel was dressed very nicely, trying to be 18 which he's not
while in the train, we crapped out way to city hall, doing stupid stuffs
and met three of goel's australian friends at city link...
went to eat sakae sushi...for dinner
after that, we went to arab street
along the way, we were making lots of noise
super high
then went sisha
went home around 1am liao
bathed and went to bed...

darn...
so god damn boring...
tomorrow start school liao...
haix
cleaned up some stuffs at home
and laze around
talking online
and doing nothing
except thinking and thinking and thinking
one day im gonna have a mental breakdown...
what a day to end the holidays...

Reached home at 7am
tried to slept at 7.30am
but could only sleep a few hours only
woke up around 10am
whole day nothing to do
afternoon tried to sleep
but something's preventing me from sleeping
my "bro" from camp called me
wanna go out
went out in the night around 10pm
was talking to ke ai before that
my bro, jason, met him at tanah merah mrt station
went to cine to watch movies
along the way, he told me about camp stuffs
naku was suppose to meet us too
but then some stuffs cropped up so he said he'll meet us later
ate long john silvers cause i didnt eat for the entire day
watched bedtime stories and YES MAN AGAIN...
damn...bedtime stories was a letdown...
just before the movies, we talked about life
and relationships
during the Yes man show, everyone was laughing...
jason keep pestering me, asking what happened next...
sianzz...
while sitting in the cinema, i was not paying attention to the show
cause i watched it before, i was wishing someone was by my side
and i dunno why...
watch the same movie at the same place with her not long ago...
was missing the way she laughed, her smile and voice...
her face and her starlight eyes...
although each time i looked, i made sure she wasnt looking back
cause i like to look into people's eyes when they do not realise
after movie...sat down while my bro was smoking
then naku pang seh us...
sian...
talked to my bro about life, girls, relationships and problems
so many things happened...
haix
waited for the first bus then i saw a crow(bird) attacking people at town siol
so funny lols
took the first bus home...at 630am
was feeling super cold...
caught a freaking cold in the bus...wth...
reached home, bathed and slept for 5 hours
so damn tired...
whole day missing my ke ai
sian...life's so meaningless...

Depressing day...
lots of thoughts filled my mind...
haix...couldnt sleep in the afternoon
cause i was thinking of somebody
worst thing is that, there wasnt anything to do
went out at night with my friend naku.
supposingly eugene was suppose to come too
but ended up, he was sleeping at home...
while waiting for him...
we went to a nearby pub near orchard plaza around plaza sing
ordered some finger food and a jug of beer
drank for an hour
naku said there was a nearby lan shop
and ask me to aim the turbans and look straight
damn bastard sia lols...
cause got two guys wearing turbans
and the lan shop was in the building next to them...
after drinking, felt alittle high
cause we drank quite fast lols
while walking to the toilet
dont know why, my friend nearly walked into the female's toilet
lols so damn funny...
still can tell me i didnt see anything
im high but im not drunk la please =.=" lols
so pai sei sia he lols
after that we went to The Cathay
and watched Ip Man & Twilight
one shot...lols crazy siol
after watching damn shag already
it was like 5am.
then sat outside The Cathay
doing nothing...so bored
then prank called some of our friends using loud speaker LOLS
asking them to tell us if they were still sleeping and what were they dreaming about
hahas...after that, we told them the reason we called them
and it was...because we wanted to ask them wake up to go toilet
lols...so damn funny...
after that, eugene came down, then we went to eat breakfast
talk awhile
then cab-ed home in the morning lols.

Christmas...
hmm...woke up super early
went out with parents and cousin to eat breakfast
then parents sent us to bedok mrt station.
sleepyheadedly went to tampinese mall
buy my cousins' presents
damn...feel so broke...
feel so tired...
scare my cousin...LOLS !
stalked her from behind when she least expected =x
then burged pass her and "shouted" excuse me hahas...
oops =p
too sleepy liao...nothing better to do xD
bought everything went home by cab
cause i wasnt feeling well...zzzz
caught a damn cold and was feeling super weird...
hahas cause yesterday got caught in the pouring rain lols
celebrated christmas with family
had pizza for dinner
played some crazy games
everyone looked retarded =x
opened presents, ate log cake
pretty insane...
dad bought me a hamburger speaker LOLS
not bad wor, super loud though it's small lols
mom bought me clothes from esprit wor...
that was like my ke ai's favourite brand...
was shocked though...cause monday bought ke ai something from my favourite shop also O.O
hmm then...talked to my ke ai online...
sian first time i could not talkback verbally...
zzz...
first girl out-talked me...jialat...
then later...quarrelled awhile...
sorry...i didnt mean it...
if only you knew...
ke ai forced wo sleep early =(
at 12am somemore...which i usually sleep super late and normally later than those who ask me to sleep earlier...
that's christmas...boring, lonely and saddy...haix

Chat with ke ai in the morning
she said two guys are courting her
that's when some weird feelings occured
well...what could i do...
nothing...it's not up to me
it's her decision...
went to cut my hair short at parkway...
was pouring outside but i had to get some stuffs outside
no choice, just walk in the rain...
stupid traffic light...went against me...
what to do...just stand in the rain...
shivering cold...rained from the previous night till this afternoon
and it's still going on.
hoping the rain could wash this pain away...
sometimes it hurts so much but i cant do shit about it...
but just to bottle it up inside..
if it could rain every single day, i would love to walk in it.
though i said how i've felt but she does not feel the same...
some things cant be force...just hope she's happy for always...
and if she needs someone, i want to be the first to be there...
and i'll always be there for her no matter what
reality check, i know i'll never be good enough for her
im totally out of her league...
but come whatever may...
*im standing my ground
i'll face my greatest fears...
even if im gonna stand broken..
this time i'll grit my teeth
and ride this one out..
i know someday...somehow
people would understand...
till that day...even if im here or gone
it's an achivement...
something which i put my heart to it...
never do something you'll regret...*
back to the happenings...
was totally wet from head to toe after i went back into the mall
was super cold...shivering
but still i had to get things done
fingers were like popsicles
frozen...
bought so many presents
exhaustedly went back home...
and slept at 2.30am...
she's been in my mind consistently throughout the day..
wondering how she was...
was her day today alright...
as i tugged myself into bed...
she was the last thing on my mind
before i went to sleep each night...

When down to plaza sing to meet ke ai at 1.30pm
walked a few rounds up and down couldnt find her at the arcade...
until i realised she was just infront of me lols...
weird...
maybe i was blind...
anyways...wow...ke ai really ke ai wor
lols...
played a few racing games cause her gan asked me to
seriously...those games we played, i dunno how to play de
never play before nia...lol...but you all say until i machum like pro like that =.="
just remained quiet like always =)
after that, went to cine to watch movie
on the way there...got mislead by her gan lol
alighted at the wrong station...hahas..
from orchard walked to cine
then tickets at 3.15pm was sold out
boy boy got to go home...sent him off at the mrt
so left me and ke ai...bought tickets for 5.20pm
walked up and down almost every shopping center also walked le
we were talking while walking
didnt know ke ai's life story is that interesting wor...
lols
watched movie "Yes, Man"
was so funny, see ke ai laugh also so unique =p
hahas...then err...walked around again to find ke ai a jacket
from hereen walked to paragon then to tangs then to shaw house then to wheelock place
then, just beside wheelock place the esprit then to zara then finally bought her jacket wor
it's not table cloth btw ! lols
say until i like salesman...bleahx...
im not lols...
after that...sent ke ai home then rotted home
what a long trip...
so tired but not sleeping yet...lols
you've seen the unreal side of me =) lols...
oops =x

Cheryl is officially my gan =p
woots
dont know how, dont know why
it just happened
thx for being there for me when i needed someone
i'll cherish and treasure you
i'll care, dote and adore you =)
~Ke Ai~ gan xD

He was almost about to lose his faith
Was still dreaming but feared it was too late
But then she came along to his surprise
And stole his heart before his very eyes
She took him right out of the blue
Simply by showing that she loves him too
Only by giving him her everything
With a love so true, she took him out of the blue
He was wondering what love was all about
He was trying but couldn’t work it out
But then she came along to his surprise
And made his frozen mind come alive
She let him out of the darkness
She brought him out in the sun
She must be the only one for him
Cos she breathe air below his wings
She took him right out of the night
Simply by filling his heart with light
Only by giving him her energy
With a love so true

Come closer now
Let me feel your heartbeat
Just stay here forever
Sometimes I wonder
Is this real or am I
Only waiting to wake up
Right before my eyes
I see your face
And it makes me smile
I want you to stay
I feel like I'm lost without you
And life just can't be the same
Took my breath away
I felt like I just lost you
Right before my eyes
For the first time
I can say forever
I don't feel alone then
And there were times when
I let you down
But I will always be there
All the times I felt alone
Cause I've been wrong
Until now my life has felt so long

When i close my eyes
all i think about is you
i cant stop myself
from dreaming all day
and i
i've been trying to tell you
how i feel
try to make you understand
that i really wanna be by your side
i remember when i held your hands tight
when you laugh, i cant sleep at night
those glitters in your eyes
but you want to be alone
you chose to be alone than to be with me

Travis, Eighteen
Something has been taken from deep inside of me.
A secret kept locked away no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away.
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played.
Sometimes i remember the darkness of my past.
Brining back these memories i wish i didn't have.
Sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back.
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past.
All of the helplessness inside.
Pretending i don't feel misplaced.
Replacing this pain with something numb.
Facing all this pain here all alone.
If i could change, i would.
Take back the pain, i would.
Retrace every wrong move that i made, i would.
If i could stand up and take the blame, i would.
If i could take all the shame to the grave, i would.


The feeling of helplessness from my pasts.
And the things i've gone through once.
Are the things i'll never want my close ones to go through.
That's why i'm always trying to help my friends.
Mostly through their times of needs.
My actions do not have to be remembered by them.
Cause i'll be happy to see them able to move on.
It's natural for one to leave for the better.
Im just a friend's support.
That's all i want to be.
Noble or whatever nice words one can think of.
I dont wish to be classified as one.
Cause i dont wish to be remembered.
Picking them up from their darkest moments.
It's okay even if my intentions are stained.
Or if it's unappreciated.
What matters most is for each and every one of them to be happy.
When they no longer need me.
That's when i'll be gone.
After they leave.


★Sofu - Darling | My Darling.
★Cheryl Wong - Gan Ke Ai | The One I Care For Most
★Gzerrel Lee - My Best Friend(Gay Buddy) | Understands Me The Most. Knows Me From Inside Out.
★Stella Lew - Close Friend | Cares For Me Alot.
★Kitty - Gan Precious | Cares For Me Alot.
★Chanelle - Bah Kua | My Entertaining Bak Kwa Friend.
★Xu Qing - Friend | Cares For Me Alot. Always Calls Me BoyBoy...
★Jason Lim - Close Friend | Shares Experience With Me.
★Joyce Lim - Quite Close Friend | Shares The Same Past And Mindset.
★Sherylene Suen - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Kifer Lau - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Rusky Wong - My Good Doggie Boi | Rest In Peace.


Ah Boon
Donavan
Nakulesh
Shaun Chan
Jeremiah Neo
Cherine Fong
Amanda Tan
Isaac Sim
Jeremy Liu
Eugene Foo
Louis Tan
Daniel Tan
Qing Gui
Por Weiting
Kia Heng
Brian
Chris Ng




XiaoDai(Ke Ai)
Kitty(Precious)
ChoyYih(Nu Er)
Liping(Nu Er)
Chanelle(Bak Kwa)
Amanda(XinGan)
Isaac(Smurf)
Jacq
Alexis
Veron
Kimmi
Sam
CookieMonster


June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009


Isabel
Amanda
Cheryl
★Sofu


This Fucking Thing Is All Personality!
I Think Rock And Roll Is Really Funny When It's Serious.
Dont Hate Me Cause I Pretend To Be Happy.
Dont Hate Me Cause Im Miserable.
Dont Hate Me If I Make You Smile,
Or If I Go The Extra Mile To Make You Feel Better On A Really Shitty Day.
And If You're Hearing What Im Saying,
Then I Want You To Say, "Im Gay!" Say, "Im Gay!"
Put Your Left Hand Over Your Heart And Repeat After Me.
It's Perfectly Fine To Be A Happy Individual.
Isnt That Nice? Very Nice.
That's Right Ladies And Gentleman!
Pick Up The Phone. Cause Travis Is On The Line.
And You Dont Have To Be Sad Anymore.
We Can All Join Hands And Do Ring Around.
In Fact, Can We Get Some LA LAs Up In Here?!
Yo!, Where My LA LAs At??! La La-La La, La-La La-La La La La La





Acoustic Guitar
Variax Microphone
New Dog
Lip Piercing
Car License
A Car
My Own Band
New Watch
New Shoes
New Shorts
New Hoodies
New Sunglasses
New Specs
New Hairstyle
New Bag
Highlight Hair
Contact Lens
Sony Bravia Tv
5.1 Stereo/Home-Theatre System
Renovated Room
Self-Composed Songs
Holiday With My Friends
Learn Snowboarding Tricks
Learn Surfing
Cheryl...(I'll Never Be Able To Have You.)


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