Went out at night for dinner with jason and gzerrel
at simpang. slacked and ate...
8plus pm. jason pulled me along to go clubbing
rained super heavily when walking to the train station
all wet... took a bus to the train station instead
smsed ke ai.
glad to hear she's fine.
took cab from tanah merah station to st james powerhouse.
travelling journey, jason talked to me about relationships.
hmm... i wish i could be like him. doing what he said so easily
getting almost all the girls he wanted.
but im not like that...
maybe it's too late...
appreciate those advices you gave me bro...
some things are easier said than done...
some things just doesnt go the way you want it to
reached st james. it was still raining.
taxi driver let us off outside...
so walked in in the rain...
went in for free. there was free-flow of alcohol till 11pm
dunno why...today feel so shitty.
just wanted to get drunk...
choing 4-5 cups of alcohol. cranberry vodka.
but still so sober...
didnt wanna go club actually...
jason entertained his friends...so me just sit there sms ke ai.
3 girls at around 4 guys.
the girls said i was so anti-social
haix. what you expect me to say =.="
dots...
just talked alittle.
smoked like 6-8 sticks cause of that twit jason...
dunno how many smoking breaks he wants
pff...i was not suppose to smoke you ass!
played drinking game awhile then went to the dance floor
somehow...i didnt felt like dancing or doing anything
just lean against the wall and watched them.
grinding here and there.
haix...wished ke ai was here with me...
okay, wake up man that aint gonna happen.
then just move here and there. so many people as time flies
so cramp, had to squeeze through the crowd.
got grinded by jason's friend who's a girl. WTF...
zzz...cant move back...got a stupid wall. cant move side
got people...cant move front...she's like THERE!.
zzz...adjusted myself to minimized physical contact.
moved away from them, went to another side.
got grinded by another 20+ girl wtf...
wanna dance then dance la...wah lau
already feeling so sad le...wanna kajiao me.
stand there do nothing also cannot.
jason and his friends kept asking me to dance pff...
then a song played. reminded me of xingan.
cause she put the same song in her blog before
argh, fuck that shit. of all the songs, play that
smoked. felt like going home. was like 3am + already
got caught between one of jason's girl friend and jason
pff...argue then argue la...pull me in for what...
jason and his bro wanna pang seh her lol...
and she grab my hand...so im stuck there...
and they had to turn back to save me =.="
being a nice and neutral guy is so hard...
cabbed home...sms ke ai...haix...bathed and slept...

Travis, Eighteen
Something has been taken from deep inside of me.
A secret kept locked away no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away.
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played.
Sometimes i remember the darkness of my past.
Brining back these memories i wish i didn't have.
Sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back.
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past.
All of the helplessness inside.
Pretending i don't feel misplaced.
Replacing this pain with something numb.
Facing all this pain here all alone.
If i could change, i would.
Take back the pain, i would.
Retrace every wrong move that i made, i would.
If i could stand up and take the blame, i would.
If i could take all the shame to the grave, i would.


The feeling of helplessness from my pasts.
And the things i've gone through once.
Are the things i'll never want my close ones to go through.
That's why i'm always trying to help my friends.
Mostly through their times of needs.
My actions do not have to be remembered by them.
Cause i'll be happy to see them able to move on.
It's natural for one to leave for the better.
Im just a friend's support.
That's all i want to be.
Noble or whatever nice words one can think of.
I dont wish to be classified as one.
Cause i dont wish to be remembered.
Picking them up from their darkest moments.
It's okay even if my intentions are stained.
Or if it's unappreciated.
What matters most is for each and every one of them to be happy.
When they no longer need me.
That's when i'll be gone.
After they leave.


★Sofu - Darling | My Darling.
★Cheryl Wong - Gan Ke Ai | The One I Care For Most
★Gzerrel Lee - My Best Friend(Gay Buddy) | Understands Me The Most. Knows Me From Inside Out.
★Stella Lew - Close Friend | Cares For Me Alot.
★Kitty - Gan Precious | Cares For Me Alot.
★Chanelle - Bah Kua | My Entertaining Bak Kwa Friend.
★Xu Qing - Friend | Cares For Me Alot. Always Calls Me BoyBoy...
★Jason Lim - Close Friend | Shares Experience With Me.
★Joyce Lim - Quite Close Friend | Shares The Same Past And Mindset.
★Sherylene Suen - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Kifer Lau - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Rusky Wong - My Good Doggie Boi | Rest In Peace.


Ah Boon
Donavan
Nakulesh
Shaun Chan
Jeremiah Neo
Cherine Fong
Amanda Tan
Isaac Sim
Jeremy Liu
Eugene Foo
Louis Tan
Daniel Tan
Qing Gui
Por Weiting
Kia Heng
Brian
Chris Ng




XiaoDai(Ke Ai)
Kitty(Precious)
ChoyYih(Nu Er)
Liping(Nu Er)
Chanelle(Bak Kwa)
Amanda(XinGan)
Isaac(Smurf)
Jacq
Alexis
Veron
Kimmi
Sam
CookieMonster


June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009


Isabel
Amanda
Cheryl
★Sofu


This Fucking Thing Is All Personality!
I Think Rock And Roll Is Really Funny When It's Serious.
Dont Hate Me Cause I Pretend To Be Happy.
Dont Hate Me Cause Im Miserable.
Dont Hate Me If I Make You Smile,
Or If I Go The Extra Mile To Make You Feel Better On A Really Shitty Day.
And If You're Hearing What Im Saying,
Then I Want You To Say, "Im Gay!" Say, "Im Gay!"
Put Your Left Hand Over Your Heart And Repeat After Me.
It's Perfectly Fine To Be A Happy Individual.
Isnt That Nice? Very Nice.
That's Right Ladies And Gentleman!
Pick Up The Phone. Cause Travis Is On The Line.
And You Dont Have To Be Sad Anymore.
We Can All Join Hands And Do Ring Around.
In Fact, Can We Get Some LA LAs Up In Here?!
Yo!, Where My LA LAs At??! La La-La La, La-La La-La La La La La





Acoustic Guitar
Variax Microphone
New Dog
Lip Piercing
Car License
A Car
My Own Band
New Watch
New Shoes
New Shorts
New Hoodies
New Sunglasses
New Specs
New Hairstyle
New Bag
Highlight Hair
Contact Lens
Sony Bravia Tv
5.1 Stereo/Home-Theatre System
Renovated Room
Self-Composed Songs
Holiday With My Friends
Learn Snowboarding Tricks
Learn Surfing
Cheryl...(I'll Never Be Able To Have You.)


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